So... Apparently there are two different ways I want to go. Two roads going different direction and I'm sure that they will never met again. If I pick one, there is no turning back. Thing is, I want to walk both of them, yet I´m not sure if I can enter any of them.  I'm stuck at the crossroad for a while (I hate it) and I know that no matter what I choose, I will regret it at some point. I know I will miss opportunities that lay on the other road and that I will never be satisfied with what I gain. Both are very important for me and means difference between satisfying life and miserable existence. But I can´t live two totally different lives at once.

Makes me wonder, what is it that we really want the most, when we don´t know about it.